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We don’t have words for the in-between.

The in-betweens is that place where you’re not quite in one state and not quite in another. It’s not the same as being on a journey from point A to point B. It’s more like being in a place where … Continue reading

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The Oddity of Dreams

Last week I had a dream I still don’t know how to interpret. My dreams are often prophetic or informative. This felt different in a way I had not experienced. When my father died over a year ago, I spent … Continue reading

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What are the things I learned as a child?

I learned that gifts would be taken away thus I learned to refuse them first. I learned that I owned nothing thus I would watch my most precious possessions given away and I learned to hide that which was most … Continue reading

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Forging Silver from Storm Clouds

There is something nigglingly on the edges of my consciousness, just what is it? It feels important, very important. It is a dawning realisation that my fracturing, my splitness, being DID was and is a good thing. Yup, that statement … Continue reading

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The Meaning of Lies

I have been a liar. I can chalk it up to those things in my past, my childhood, or for any number of valid reasons. The person I’ve been lying to all this time has been myself. It struck me … Continue reading

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The Question of Forgiveness

This has sat in my draft box since 30 May 2016. It’s a very angry response to the issue of forgiveness after my father’s death. It raises the hair on my arms reading this, feeling the anger roll off in … Continue reading

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I thought I had done shadow work before. I mean the kind of work where you work on all the icky parts of your personality.I’m fairly sure I had but this that I’m working on is different. I’m not ready … Continue reading

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