I learned that gifts would be taken away thus I learned to refuse them first.
I learned that I owned nothing thus I would watch my most precious possessions given away and I learned to hide that which was most precious to me.
I learned that I was powerless to those in charge of me thus I learned my words and thoughts meant nothing.
I learned that it was the wants of others that would always affect my life thus I learned to read people in an effort to give them what they needed before they asked.
I learned that things of the world were sinful thus I learned all my childish wants were as well.
I learned that participation was being a part of the world thus I learned to watch and stand apart from everything.
I learned that there was no one there for me thus I learned to only rely on myself as I was truly alone.
I learned that my presence was undesired thus I learned to wait in the shadows, hiding not hoping for a kindness.
I learned that kindness always had a price thus I learned that paying that price was often too costly.
I learned that love was just a word thus I learned to mistrust words and watch actions instead.
I learned that my childish joy brought pain thus I learned to bury my joys and not experience them openly.
I learned that I could trust no one thus I learned I could not even trust myself.
I learned that I was little in a world of bigs thus I learned to walk unseen.
These were painful lessons and they are causing havoc on my life.