There are some things I do want to write about. So many things all going on all at once again. My life is being turned upside down again. I think I’m just begining to get used to the idea of staying home again. I am so afraid that I’ll end up doing nothing and being board or worst that it actually happens. I don’t want to be trapped by the house, the bed and my own unwillingness to change. I don’t want half measures at all. I want to change this proscrastion inside me. There are things I know I can do. Like yoga in the morning, like having time to put in a garden and still be able to go see Emy and cook dinner and still relax and have fun and to be too tired that I can’t cook dinner and keep a clean house too. Well right now I’ve got to get ready to go see Emy. It’s 8pm.